that last moment

it didnt hit me.. didnt hit me at all, until today, that that day might have been a goodbye, might have been the last time.. ai.. what have i missed? what have i done? i never learned.

i never cared for the things that could have been, thinking that it'll always be there for me. but how many chances have i missed?

there will always be bothering regrets in our life.

chances that we missed. people that we let go. people who left. people we left. things we never get to have.

but... for how long can we hold on to regrets? and not being grateful fr what he have and not looking at the reasons fr the things happened the way they happened...

i know there have been many wrong choices in my life.. ive made mistakes, ive made the wrong decisions.. (wrong, because in the process i'll keep questioning myself. unhappy, uneasy) but i guess, there shouldnt be questions of 'right or wrong' choices in our life (as long as it is not against islam).. whatever it is, embrace it and make the best out of it. the moment we decide to do something, commit to it, set our mind and heart into it.. (just like when decide to be in love with someone. haha).. eh positiv tia bunyinya..? :p

“No amount of guilt can change the past & no amount of worrying can change the future. Go easy on yourself, for the outcome of all affairs is determined by Allah's decree. If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee.”

[Umar Ibn al-Khattab (may Allah be pleased with him)]