he-yo

i remember how nervous i was an hour to minutes before my first class and during my first class. and now, i fell into a pattern.. a bittersweet pattern... and i think, i am okay with that.

but there is another new class this friday and im not prepared. im scared. haha. tpi bnr, im super nervous. i am super scared.

its fun.. if fun is the word, having the rollercoaster of the weeks.. the weeks are not consistent, they arent always bitter, they arent always happy. isnt life like that? but yeah.. the feelings are just so weirdly vividly distinguishable. hmm

i like unpredictability.. the more unexpected things are, the more i like it. but yeah, there are "good and happy" unpredictability, and the sad-bad ones. there are "pleasant surprises" and there are the killing ones... but that way, i guess, thats where it goes "life is never boring" :s