Monday, March 12, 2012

chemicals

antah aaahhh..... hahhaha. there is a lot of chemicals inside me now. chemicals of feelings.

walking to the school, alone... past the buldings, past the traffic light, the roads, the people, the cars... didnt make me happy at all. at all. i hated it. i hated being alone in this. which is, considered surprising, because ive always been good at being alone. haha. at least good enough not to hate it.

and and there is a lot more that i feel besides hating the fact that i am alone. (alhamdulillah aku ada housemate lah. hehe. mn nda, depress th ku. hahaha). so anyway, there is disturbing feeling that....... aah malasku kn describe bh..... *annoying kn?*

hmm.

and and i wish i could be like those "glorious days in memory" :p where i'd be asleep at earliest possible psal mngalih nda terungkap haha and at ten pm, id be worried if i had not been sleeping.. worried that the next day would be a disaster psal klw nda ckup tdur nda tbelusir and muntah kuning. oh yeah i am so hoping to put my life into that kind of routine. only different-er...

aah antah kau. kn tdur ku

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