versus

the difference that i can think of now.. of why last summer felt.... special and super awesome.. and and this summer feels, (i personally think), plain and boring and dull... because because.. last year i was striving for something, striving for survival at the least! this year, it doesnt feel much different from any other normal days i spent here... except that i have so much empty (feelings and schedule) this summer..

and last year, i tried many new things, full schedule days, spent my time with the people i barely spent my daily days with (oh i miss you two!).. and therefore.. thats why i enjoyed last year more.. and.. i became that super appreciative.. partly because i knew those days wont repeat again.. i'll never get to experience the same..

(aah maybe i shouldnt have let my summer be empty, should have registered for some classes or something? haha tpi malasku eh~ stressku karang... tpi in the end, the pressure's gonna be worth it.. i know..)

oh and because.. this year.. i dont get to spend my days the ways ive always imagined..

but then, syukran lillah ala kulli hal.. thousands of reasons for why things happened the way they happened..

and its me who cant really bring and feel the joy in the things that i do.. sobsobsob