of mixtures

i dont feel good... i need a good sleep. i feel weak.. mcm effect lapas minum kupi and inda dpat tdur.. tapi bkn plg.. just the sleepless night. and the tiring day, ngaleh nyamu ke hussin atu time2 puasa! haha. mun mliat aing bewap and ice bsurung di sana atu, bari beistighapar eh. (istighfaaaar. hehe). "dont look dont look, tutup mata, alihkan pndangan.. sesungguhnya orang yg sdang berpuasa itu teruji iman dan kesabarannya.." hehehe

so.. i feel like.. sangaaaal~ tpi mostly sangal-lack-of-sleep punya sangal.. and my right arm/hand (ndaku tau bh mna singgan part arm ani.. atau bleh jua utk whole part? haha. google2, or ask. hahaha :p) ytah TANGAN kanan ku sangaaal bnr, been suffering from this gatal2 since... a week? tpi sikit2 bh, sbuting2 atau dua at one time... and dorang jadi bangkak and purple.. and now yg arah tangan ani bangkak, merah purple and mcm ada air/possibly nanah (barigali? soriii. :p).. and so, inda nyaman rasa kesihatan i~ indaku tau if sbenarnya external body sja yg kurang sehat atau ada immune system pun sdang berjuang.. but i dont feel good. oh the good thing is that.. this is the first time aku suffer sensitive skin due to weather (mangkali) - of this kind punya sensitive skin - spanjang ku di misr ani.. before ani, just minor minor,, inda bangkak.. skali somehow im okay with this.. ampit jua experience-kind-of-okay *aku assume wah ani ni 'hassasiyah' yg due to weather base on friend's experience

and my stomach inda nyaman.. mcm kn mutah, i think due to exhaustion and lack of sleep.

plus... mostly because im in mixture of emotions now. i know there's a lot of happiness there, in me. and.. a lot of thinking too. and.. maybe worries.. and.. maybe excitement... mixture of emotions lah.. make me restless, not in a bad way.. but restless... nanti ku describe tah kali.. tapi.. yg bnr bnr bnrnya, alhamdulillah, syukran lillahi ala nikmatihi.

haaii, i should have posted something yesterday, when there was clearly one emotion that dominated - HAPPINESS, just so my words and expression in here would justify how grateful and happy i am.

alhamdulillah ya Allah.

=)