penguin and me?

"you know, penguin.. they spend their whole lives looking for that one other penguin, and when they meet them they know. and they spend the rest of their lives together" -never been kissed, 1999.

(havent found the exact fact though, nada arah front page google result, malasku majal. hahah)

.. so, that is probably why i have this interest arah penguin time ku damit2 kali? haha. oh, yes, when i was young.. there was this drawing/art lesson, you were asked to design/colour things pakai pisang? pakai batang pisang yang kna putung sudah... cacahkan arah water colour and kasi taruh arah lukisan atu tia.. cop cop cop, jadi drawing yg ada 'sticker' colour and shape yg designnya isi batang pisang tia.. hehe.. i used penguin as my subject. i dont know what i felt exactly during that time that i am able to remember it now? im sure i felt something, for feelings are usually that make us remember certain ordinary everyday-kind-of-things.

the penguin thing.. its.. beautiful. but even if thats what i like, thats what i choose to hold on to, i also come to believe that we can simply have feelings for a lot of people, fall in love with them and then realise theyre not the one we can and will spend the rest of our life with. what we feel is what we feel, right? we cant just deny that. but then its up to us to choose whether to let the feelings produce actions or otherwise. anyways, quoted "its a lie when you say you dont have feelings anymore-at all- for someone you've loved dearly and truly before.. just because you've found something or someone you love now, someone you love more than anything else in the world"

i mean.. because... sometimes its the mistakes that led us to the right ways.. things..

had a killer tusen today, from 8am to 2pm. handal tu ah. haha. and then i slept at 4pm to 10pm. bangun jua ku rupanya lagi ah? haha. i forgot how scary it is, it feels like, to sleep after waktu solat asar. u know sometimes waking up and gasping "siang kah sudah ni???" or.. in my case today.. mimpi-ngeri-almost-gasping. haha. the sleep was deep enough i guess, it enables us to be feeling.. 'crazy' or.. a'uzubillahi min assyaitanirrajim, i suppose. hehe.

aih, can i just have the rest of the hours 'today'-before i sleep again, watching series, dramas or movies or internet? bulih lah~

esuk tah sambung afal/ulang al-quraan and baca buku utk oral ah. negehehe. okay? okay~

and im excited for monday. ke sc jua nganya. haha. kn bjalan2 ku bh~ mngalih ku bh~