children and dot dot dot

three top lists that i like about kids, children:

one: their honesty/innocence

two:their contagious happiness. the way they make you happy just because theyre happy. the way theyre able to change your mood from gloomy to happy.

three:the way they never fail to make you feel loved and wanted (and responsible and important). they way they turn you from feeling useless to useful.

-they dont know how to pretend, when theyre hurt.. when they feel ignored, they show it clearly, by words. by actions. when they love you, they run to you and plant you a kiss on the cheek, they hug you out of nowhere. they tell what they want, they let you know what they feel, they say it out loud whats on their mind. they tell you how beautiful or nice you are and they will tell you how ugly and mean you are when they feel so. such honesty and their ways to make you feel loved and important.. wanted.. belong..

-they answer you back innocently. they attack you with sensible questions. they answer logically, straightforward, no games no putar belit no hidden meanings. and then, with the innocence-thing they have, they make you realise a lot of things.. they inspire you..

(basically what human instincts are all about. human nature. fitrah manusia)

and then... as they grow up.. they're losing those two important qualities-honesty and innocence-.... and truthfully, i hate to see that happening. although at some points, minimising those two are essentials for survival.. if applied at the right things and times.. but still.. it's kind of sad to see when they know how to pretend, to hide, to lie (in a way you still can know its a lie, its a pretense). but you still love them the same, ofcourse.

-my little nephew is a very happy kid. sure it can be tiring to be around him, and sometimes annoying. haha. but, such a beautiful thing when for example, theyre happy because u make them happy.. you feel you have it all at that moment. and when youre down, having one blue monday... having breakfast on your own in the very early morning and then you suddenly hear someone making sound of happiness.. on his way downstairs.. singing "du du du la la la", im sure it puts some smiles on your face. their happiness is contagious. i feel like i cant find better positive attitudes somewhere else!

so.. yes, there are a lot of things that we can learn from children!

when a niece sms me, saying she misses me.. i'd be extra careful to reply. so that i wouldnt be barat sabalah, i dont want others to feel like i love one more than others, i'd say "i miss you too, and also i miss others too" but i guess its not always enough because the next thing, i would get a new sms saying "this is the other niece-mentioning her name, saying: i miss you" - haha. it wont be good enough until they get the same thing, the same treatment :) and... most people, including me... seem to.. emm, not very successful in that. its not easy to be fair and just.. but it doesnt hurt to always try :)

anyway. im putting on hold my series, si lie to me ah. it creeps into my dreams. and i was exhausted by those dreams. haha. it felt like, i was thinking while sleeping. i dont know how it made me. the scenes, the actors, the concepts were all there.. macam aku yang mendirect cerita atu. huhu. isnt sleep all about getting us away from reality? those few days, i was burdened with a phase between reality and dreams, the kind of dreams where youre the one yang menyusun critanya.. i think? ertinya tidur inda nyaman. haha. not only those few days lah, sometimes i did get some kinds of those self-directed dream jua. hehe. haih, too much movies/series i think. i'll have to limit that. one or two in a day.

one month to exam. i..... need to... emm.. to change. change the routine and get the grip-of-panic. a little. (jan panik brabis eh, menangisss ku karaaang tuuu)

so.... good luck, myself. and you all, on whatever you do!