shoe syuhh

the problem with being short-sighted and not wearing the glasses when youre actually supposed to wear it, is... whenever someone is looking at you, you dont know that theyre looking at you because you cant see them so you thought they cant see you too. fact, they see your face and expression and whatever it is clearly. clearly. try wear the hidden spectacles. surprising! haha. macam kau senyum2 sndiri, atau mbuat mua.. thinking the other person cannot see u clearly..... hmm

anyway. i remember this one time, i went shoe-shopping, in cairo. (ani crita lain ni, bukan psal kacamata:p). i was standing and looking (seemed interested) at this one particular shoe. then one lady came to me and asked "you like the shoe?" huh huh? snapped me out of angan2. i wasnt interested actually. sja2 teberanti. so i answered "oh no no" - for i thought she wanted the shoe or she was the shop-assistant, antah.. i didnt pay attention.

then.. THEN she laughed hysterically. bassar. tkajut. i was puzzled. ktawa? why??? sambil ktawa, out of breath, she said "this shoe is made in china. hahhaha. and you said you dont like it. hahaha". puzzled, still. so?

hah.. i know.. could it be, she thought i am from china and i didnt like my own products? no patriotism in me.. at all? like that? just like that??

"im not from china anyway" -

"not china? hahaha. still.. hahaha. its you neighbour. hahaha". i am sure the laugh would have annoyed you too. would have annoyed anyone in my place.

something rose in me. anger, annoyance. she was still laughing. i thought of saying something. but the wise part of me came waking me up and i let go the situation and went outside.....

she was unbelievably rude. how on earth she could laugh like that at a stranger. even when the situation was, say, the funniest in the universe. why? no respect at all?

right, there was certain fault in the way i responded.. i should have shown at least a little patriotism and love towards my country, my race or my region. people find flaws in whatever you say and do. people look at you, judge you. point taken... you can always find and show love in the simple things. and you can always find flaws in the simple things.

but, in the other angle.. its a freedom of opinion, i cant possibly love anything that comes from myself, that comes from within me.. that comes from my origin. no? i cant love just anything. taste, and opinion and choices are what human is equipped with.

so, standing in the middle. i should be more careful in what i say and do.. no careless acts that give the wrong message: i dont love my country, my origin. i dont support it. i dont protect it. i have no patriotism.. while at the same time, having the freedom of opinion and... choices. :) we can do both.