wedns afternoon...

nooooo... im super sleepy. macamana mau jalan2 lah krg.. tpi aku mau jalan.. boring tia ni, jalan with the sleepy head.. antam sajaa lah..

at the office now. had a short meeting, or briefing. fri, sat, sun i have tasks to do.

i dont know how long how short im gonna stay here.. my target is until the end of february..

on the other note, completely different one.. sometimes.. looking back, looking at myself.. there are times that i am able to see myself changing.. slowly.. not in a good or bad way.. i mean, not obviously categorised "bad" or "good".. i'd say maybe neutral.. could be good, could be bad.. depends where it leads me.. depends on how i navigate them.. but when i see those changes, i am scared.. scared to see who i am becoming.. afraid to know that one day, i might be losing myself.. losing the good parts of me and become someone i didnt imagine i would be.. perhaps losing one quality for another quality..

who knows?

i don't wanna name a solid example.. but let me put it this way..

lets say (this one, u can apply it to many other things lah..), i am someone who is satisfied having only necessity, if i have one good bag, then i am okay with that. i dont buy more. if i have any good-okay2 car, then i wont ask fr more..

but as i "grow up" (i dont know if i can call that growing up..), as the years passed.. i tend to have wants and desires of having more than enough.. and so, that should scares me..

im just saying, once you have your eyes on PRADA (example example), once you have your eyes on ROBERTO CAVALLI, once you own a porsche, a lexus won't satisfy you... your standards will be on porsche line.. you wouldnt want a mitsubishi.. i mean.. its in my logic, thats what i think.. the probability is not low.. unless, youre still the you, you still can maintain that crazy part of yours.. you have the strong foundation that can guarantee you will never lose yourself somewhere along life, somewhere along growing up, somewhere along the fine line between defining yourself and becoming the better you..

you see my point?

(no, dont get it wrong. its just an example. i am not against "branded" things. if you are the way you were.. then, just dont mind. but if you are changing, you'll get the ideas of my example. no heart attack eh? :p)

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