(yesterday)

aah backpain backpain. sit for too long, watching secret garden. everyone i know who watches whis drama has good review on it. so, why left behind? haha. plus, good to have something to watch. nyehehe. well, im addicted. though might not be a top list. its a good drama. has some differences in the story and... whats inside the story. quite difficult to catch up with the script (both script and translation, i mean. hehe). to me, not that easy to understand the characters, their script, the message.. exactly and fully. it makes me think. the drama, the drama, the character make me think. and i like that. maybe thats the reason of reasons, me watching and maybe liking the drama. maybe. plus the sweet sweet parts, the humours and stuff, of course......

anyway. im here, because i wanna write down this something i felt earlier today. emm while i still remember. so that-as i always said- i will remember this, and could be a good reminder someday.

i dont know how to put it in words, really. but i was thinking, there were days when i learned something.. there were things that i realised.. moments that went deep in the heart.. they were all so deep that i was so grateful.. but not deep enough that they lasted for only such a short time? not deep enough that theyre forgotten.. i learn and i forget.. sad.. such a loss..

and today, i thought i saw this.. "i was lost for so long. then i found myself in the little things" ;and somehow its likely that i'll lose my ways again. it scares me seeing its so easy to never make it home. seeing the possibility scared me.weak uh? that is a sum up for today.

it felt... so heartbreaking.. yet inspiring..