hello again

there wasnt much reason fr me to be here. except when i wanted to visit blogs... didnt really know what to post. its been a month aye? andangnya tu eh, time exam sibuk2 th mcm2 kn dbuat (psal stress?) and after holiday..... breaksss from everything.

just.. ystrday.. i was blamed (partly) ulih the taxi driver. short story, housemates and me went to hussien, naik teksi lah. i didnt talk much. but that one time i said something to one of the mates. and the taxi driver mnoleh, ia ckap "apa?". aku buat mua bngang and said "hah? nada2" BUT within that split seconds..... bukkk!! ia tlnggar buntut krita di dpan. (to be continued) hahaha. will post later this story, insyaAllah. copy paste the one i wrote fr my sister. hehe

ytah.. it just strikes me lately... i remember how much i loved egypt.. fr the freedom i always feel.. fr the country being 'whatever-i-dont-care'.. fr her having no rules.. like, doesnt require me to behave such such ways, to dress in such such ways.. etc.. seems like no one competes no one, i dont feel burdened with expectations... loved that. still do, but... reducing so much. suddenly. no, not sudden. its... after i got back from holiday, swiss.

not that i love love swiss so so much, memuji tahap dewa dewa (tho i do really love sana plg).. its just.. the people, the country, the system were so good, i mean.. at least they gave me such a good first impression.. they were nice.. that subconsciously i began to compare them with egypt. mcm jauh brabis bezanya.. when i got back to cairo.. jnth jauh, cairo airport sj.. i.. somehow.. had this feeling yg sanak sasak annoyed byk2 rh urg egypt (aah so mean aku ah!).. how could they be so pnipu, how could they be so nda helpful, how could they be so rude, so angry, so bising, so cuai, *ndalah smua urg*.. how could the road be tlmpau zahmah, how could it be so unsystematic, so bising, so polluted, so........ aah. i compared!!

and after that, anak bawab lgi kn mnta usin sja... urg arab di imarah nakut2i kmi pkai kuyuk itamnya.. many other things.. and plus yesterday, the paci taxi seemed to blame me on the accident.. everything! im annoyed with every little thing...

oh then, there were days here ujan2.. the rain, the thunder.. remind me of brunei. remind me of home. of course, when i compared swiss and egypt, brunei was in my mind. then, lately ive been thinking about home. about the food, the place, the people... after all, there is no place like home.....

i guess, im missing home :'( ... like ive never missed it before...

swiss somehow opened my eyes to appreciate home more and more. (tho in a bit weird way, like.. aku kbisaian swiss then i see so much flaws di egypt (not that i didnt see them before. its just mcm bgnda gnda), my love fr here reducing.. therefore after all.. the place i love the best is where i grow up.. where i was born.. no place like it.. weird chain of events. // weird way of thinking. hahaha. whatevess :p)

not that i dont like it here nemore plg, still like eh.. and i know.. il leave this kind of life here eventually.. il miss it so much.. il always remember how it makes me feel... :) :)