we are we are..

ive made a mistake once... (i mean, of course lh mistakeSSS.. ala you ani.. )

bh start again: =p

ive made a mistake once... and this one mistake.. made me who i am now... its not err.. that big BIG one.. but big enough to let me see one thing quite clearly..

i know i might make that same mistake again.. such an easy mistake.. aah mistakes are easy anyway...

but ive been great in avoiding it.. i.. but it hurts.. once so many times.. i dunno.. maybe im quite sure with one thing and so blind about another.. sigh i really dunno.

all i know is.. ive never been certain.. never been sure.. all i want.. is to be certain.. to be sure... and along the way, i know il have to endure some pain? or.. perhaps, i dont have to? i dont have forever, i cant give forever... but...

it makes the good part of me, it hurts some other parts of me, it blinds me, it... it... its like.. "its right but its not right"

i guess the fear thats left in me is the mistake...

is it the fear? am i afraid.. of what exactly??

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