craps.. can be beautiful? haha

huu its already 11th dec.. im so undeniably pmalas.. most of the time, when i thought i hv nothing else to do; by nothing else i mean.. I MEAN, abis udh kn dkrajakn, kn diliat, kn dibilak dlm laptop ani.. (sad rite? that i think like that.. cuath aku start blajar...), id go to my bed, buried myself under the slimutan.. sajuk bh.. when i got a little warmer, id refuse to go out of slimut.. and that brought me to another phase.. which is TIDUR.. aii.. mengapa~ i really need some sort of injection.. hormon smangat.. bila th??? come on mind, come on body, come on heart, come on soul, work together scara positive!! wake up wake up!! (ehem)

u know, i agree with the "less is more"? because i realise, most of the time, say, when i try to be funny, i wont be funny.. when i try to impress people with my work, with my ways, i end up feeling awful.. when i put so much effort in thinking of solution, creating ideas, it all be too much, bida, buruk, mish ma'ul, crap... and.. one more thing, i cannot feel intimidated.. again, il do crap. (because we expected too much kali? skali we gain less therefore frustated?)

its when i dont think much, i dont overdo, i dont try so hard.. it is when im effortlessly thinking, doing, walking.. baruth mnjadi yg ku mau.. (opposite2 : we expected little, kalinya gain more. therefore happy~~~)

sukatiku lah...

its like, when i try to draw a beautiful scenery, a beautiful drawing.. i spend so much time thinking, "what coulour will i put at the upper corner of this paper?" "should the line be bolted? naaa i should make something rectangular" then i prepare all branded watercolour set.. planning what colour should be used precisely.. there is this picture in my head that i think would impress the buyers.. but.. unfortunately no one buys.. i got stressed out and put all the colours so randomly on another paper, brush green here, blue there, pink on the corner.. its all macam crap (mcm katam bh. nd paham. wawaa), it seems to be stupid idea... skali apanah? it turns out to be one of the hottest, psalnya no one else does like that.. its kind of unique.. its different.. people love it because its fresh.. therefore reach the standard of beauty they want.. unexpected? maybe! thats why.. jgn th tkut kn bgi idea yg mcm out2.. no thought is stupid thought, no idea is a crap idea, no opinion is wrong.. because, BECAUSE, people is just different! value our own standard ourselves, there must be someone out there who thinks like us.. (cakap th kau sini sndiri~ mcm si bnr, diri sama jua.. hahaha)

*eh it feels good bagi example arh drawing bcz aku nd pndai mlukis? haha

yatah, less is more. jgn jdi extremist. hahaha. nda bh, dont get it wrong there.. when less is more.. jgn plg spend little effort in something2.. sila masukkn arh situation dan definition yg lurus, i believe u hv experienced "less is more"

i dont really know when usually id function at my best.. bnr.. haha.. mostly during unplanned ones.. tpi random id say? i could be at my worst during my unplanned times.. and i could be at my best when i planned everything jua.. aah canilh, when i believe i can do it, i can.. when i believe im doing my best.. its gonna be the best.. haha.. bnar kali ah, the power of positive thinking :)

emm.. to me, personally, (barangkali), il function at my best..when i love what im doing.. i mean, as long as we love what we do, we love our effort, we love our drawing, our ideas, our arts.. with no intention of impressing others, without having to match others punya standard.. we are at our best, insyaAllah.. asal ati puas and happy.. ececeh :)
and plus during desperate times.. when there is no others.. there is no time.. i could not depend on anyone else but me.. tpksa lh.. skali bisai tia.. psalnya masa desperate, the unconscious parts of me teDig tia sndirinya.. antah kau, manasja.. tpi bnr.. haha

pnjang eh. aku bukn kn buat ani bnrnya, melaghat tia.. huhu, bear with my beautiful craps. hahah