maybe i didnt smile like i thought i meant it

for a brief moment.. i thought i saw it has colour..

that it was blinking..

i thought i was waiting..

or maybe considering..

and the question is..

is worth it? is it always worth it?

standing.. without even knowing how much longer these two feet can stand? or maybe it isnt about those feet or shoulders that hold..

maybe its the soul? or heart..? or.. brain?

and if there is forever.. how long.. how short.. forever is for each different person? how different it is?

yes like they say there is always more than just meets the eyes..

and how opposite poles always attracted.. and.. same poles repelled..

but are they? and if the rules are ever going to change.. will it hurts?

and i thought ive always seen hope.. certainly i will always.. with the little faith that lies between the fine line..

hope.. is for someone who hasnt really found light.. i was once told..

hopes.. could be crushing.. tearing.. heartbreaking.. or whatever it is that shatters the soul..

but.. but..

it could be the life... the reason to breathe..

so dont take it away.. i'd rather gamble..

you know.. the silence has treating me so badly.. or maybe has betrayed.. you.. me.. or them..

in the end, maybe its just the eyes that can tell the truth.. if.. if.. if.. u could ever look really really deep into them..

or.. maybe iim still running, like i always did.. no one has ever stopped me.. yet..

but as i move on.. just i realised i havent really tried.. but have you? have you? have us all tried? even when we say "God knows i tried.. but i failed"?

break the colours into single stain.. u will win..