Eyes into eyes

Those moments of eyes clashes, have you ever been there? Hikhik.

Emm well, several times in my life.. There are faces of strangers that stay in my mind-honestly fr a long time, bcause of the eyes clashes. Not romantically woo.. I mean.. Just.. Some mysteries about the eyes. Hahaha antam kau..

But really, the moments where my eyes landed directly into the other person's eyes.. And their eyes exactly directly looked me in the eyes too.. I wonder what made them, their looks, those people, stayed in my mind fr a long long time.. No no no, im not intended to make a romantic-like post, i stress again ah:p its just, really, i wonder what actually happened.. Honest description, i think, the moment our eyes clashes.. I dont know what i was thinking, maybe the world just froze and mind went blank? Is it too much if i say that? For i think that only happens in the movies and in love-related things..

Its like, the eyes were saying something.. Something i dont quite understand, something i am not quite sure..

But i do think that i dont really know what happened, it feels like i was surprised.. Or amazed.. Or antah eh.. Only after the clashes i was able to question things.. And i wonder if the other person was thinking the way i was thinking? And i wonder why they stay in my mind fr a long time, not in the way that i feel something special fr them lah. Haha

so my point is, what actually happened in the eyes clashes? Not that it happened to me banyak kali.. Few times of my life.. Those few strangers and no strangers, can say have (kind of) same effects.. Or so it may seem like..

Hahaha :p

wedns afternoon...

nooooo... im super sleepy. macamana mau jalan2 lah krg.. tpi aku mau jalan.. boring tia ni, jalan with the sleepy head.. antam sajaa lah..

at the office now. had a short meeting, or briefing. fri, sat, sun i have tasks to do.

i dont know how long how short im gonna stay here.. my target is until the end of february..

on the other note, completely different one.. sometimes.. looking back, looking at myself.. there are times that i am able to see myself changing.. slowly.. not in a good or bad way.. i mean, not obviously categorised "bad" or "good".. i'd say maybe neutral.. could be good, could be bad.. depends where it leads me.. depends on how i navigate them.. but when i see those changes, i am scared.. scared to see who i am becoming.. afraid to know that one day, i might be losing myself.. losing the good parts of me and become someone i didnt imagine i would be.. perhaps losing one quality for another quality..

who knows?

i don't wanna name a solid example.. but let me put it this way..

lets say (this one, u can apply it to many other things lah..), i am someone who is satisfied having only necessity, if i have one good bag, then i am okay with that. i dont buy more. if i have any good-okay2 car, then i wont ask fr more..

but as i "grow up" (i dont know if i can call that growing up..), as the years passed.. i tend to have wants and desires of having more than enough.. and so, that should scares me..

im just saying, once you have your eyes on PRADA (example example), once you have your eyes on ROBERTO CAVALLI, once you own a porsche, a lexus won't satisfy you... your standards will be on porsche line.. you wouldnt want a mitsubishi.. i mean.. its in my logic, thats what i think.. the probability is not low.. unless, youre still the you, you still can maintain that crazy part of yours.. you have the strong foundation that can guarantee you will never lose yourself somewhere along life, somewhere along growing up, somewhere along the fine line between defining yourself and becoming the better you..

you see my point?

(no, dont get it wrong. its just an example. i am not against "branded" things. if you are the way you were.. then, just dont mind. but if you are changing, you'll get the ideas of my example. no heart attack eh? :p)

zzzzzzzzz

eleven days

eleven days around the world...
days across time differences & weather changes..
now i am back home.. home, one of the homes..

nda plg world.. haha africa, europe and asia sja. hehe. from egypt to italy to swiss to transits (london-spore) and landed safely in Brunei, the abode of peace.

eh first time ku naik kapal tayaabang dua tingkat :p haha dont mind my sakai-ness :p namanya ku sakai. BARU PERNAH bh eh. it was a 13hrs flight to spore. out of that 13hrs, 3jam maximum nganya ku bngun. ampar udah tu. haha. kapalnya balum trabang pn ku udah tdur. masa kna bagi mkanan pun mcm urg mngigau. hehe.

now that it sinks in me, a little.. i think my recent trip was awesome. i loveeee it very much. the experience was priceless, esp the italy part. im gonna remember this. in such good ways. it was wonderful. gonna miss it. :)

tho.. rugi jua to have missed the chaos in egypt. that is one in a million years experience. but mine, its kind of special too, in its own way.

im still excited being here but wait, just wait a little bit longer, im gonna miss home. the other home. and then, my stay here wont be as exciting. sigh.

bah egypt aah.. please be the home i knew.. or even better... :') capat2.. i give you until the end of feb, if not.. gedebuk2 taaa ku ni.. gedebuk2 lagi sedih... fr egypt..

i think i already have plans fr half of the days of this week!! nyeh nyeh. && lucky me inda damam! or not yet. hehe

"stranded"

...and i found cavalli of italy!! :p

if you want something so much, if you put effort in what you want.. you'll find ways to get it, you will get it.. just like i found cavalli. hahaha over2 :p HAPPY KALI KU AH :P

me in geneva, swiss now. haha, funny that i'm back here this fast. good to see the streets ive been to before, to see the lake that was and is beautiful. hope to see the fountain tmorow.. andangnya memajal. haha

thank you fr the great hospitality, fr the great assistance!! im grateful. and super galat. tahap gedebummm. brabis. hehe

(first nasi in eight days!!! hahha. sick of kebab, sick of sandwiches. maggi masih bulih tolerate. hehe)

im super tired. gastrik lagi tu. sakitnya kah parutku. i'd say, trip to italy was adventurous. and banyak jua KM-s jalan kaki covered. fun, in the adventure way. fun, in many ways. i like, i like. i know that i like swiss trip better, i dont know... its just, italy is so much like swiss.. its like going to another swiss. and like i said, first times are always more fun.. so yea, i like "first swiss" better. but italy is special in its own way. adventure. kurang safe. public transport nda brapa siuk. though, still good. and in italy, banyak tempat kmi cover. banyak train kmi naik. banyak meriki. banyak jalan kaki. byk diliat. diff type of people. diff places, diff people, diff stories, a lil diff culture frm city to city and language pn mcm diff sikit. hotel pun baruku liat ada cara lain atu. and first time ke pantai europe. plus italy sajuk bnaaarr, much colder than today di swiss. tahap kn blusir just so we arrive fast, nda tia sajuk lagi. hehe. and.. spanjang di italy, kmi ada jalan kaki di highway. CAN U BELIEVE THAT? jalan kaki arah highway?? and main roads, and round-abouts? hahaha. wlwpun th kwasan kampung sikit (ampir milan plg), still.. lain jua usulnya tu. not very safe. tapi.... mun udah kuat ati. antam sja, psal salah plan, so had to walk. haha. good experience.

yesterday went to that "designer outlet saravalle village" - COOLNESS!! the coolest shopping area ive ever been to. that was fun!!! made me happy. i wish i had more time. ani berabut wh ke kadai2 ah. hmmm. overall, that place was awesome. highlight of my trip. hehe. didnt buy much plg jua.. susah mau pilih, masa lagi, duit lagi etc. Milan shopping areas are undeniably cool too, but aren't out-lets much cooler? price-wise and brand-wise and area-wise? (designers clustered in one area. what more can you wish fr? ;p nada gucci nganya rh saravalle ni. hehe) byk plg lagi kampung designer outlets ni bnrnya, but i think this one is the best! :D

welcome to one cool village!

choose your favourites!!

range of prica italia robertoria ;D

anyway, back to brunei soon. tmorrow flight from here. double triple jet lag ku ni. bfore ani naik train bejam2, muak dh naik train ani. sangal. in and out of sleep. nda betntu. plane would be worse. so i need to get goooood long sound rest. I HOPE. dari masa exam udah nd berehat ani nyantaaa. huhu.

IM GONNA MISS EGYPT SO MUCH. yes, im excited to go back brunei. and maybe still excited fr a while. but im sad. sad fr egypt, fr egyptians. fr myself. fr my friends. if the worst happens, i can't just pack up mylife like that. i cant let go egypt this sudden. its a part of me. part of home. its my life. i am worried abt many things actually. nah ani kurang tia lagi masa kn di spend di sana. hehe. i dont think she will be okay very soon. but egypt, dont take so long... be fine soon...

cant wait to meet other brucai actually. share our stories.

when i get back, it'll be hard fr me to go online. so, dont miss me too much :p bcause i'll be missing internet sooooo much!!

pray the best fr me. fr my friends. fr all the egyptians. fr egypt. fr the students yg study di egypt smuanya. fr smua yg involve.

tired. im going now. see you somewhere some time, somehow ;p

:)

Italy.Day seven.Feb 1

bah now, its today's post :D

my extended-stranded-holiday to be :p -ani somewhere around treviso city-

didn't do much today. walked around the city. the hotel dropped us at the nearest bus station this morning then kmi ambil bus to the city and and MACAM BIASA LAH, balik dari city, naik bus to that nearest station and jalan kaki ke hotel. at least 2km covered. at least tu. maybe more. nah nyangku, FIT taya ni kami ani. haha. malas wah naik teksi, mahal ah. this way, we managed to save at least 6 euro! banyak tu. hehe

did some light shopping. :p its just a small city plg. went to benetton, the home of benetton. its a big building. basar kadainya, namanya home nya. hehe. tapinya boring aaah.. jauh2 ku mengaga ia punya home.. skalinya nda byk wh barangnya ah. maybe clearance kali bah. atukan betingkat2 bangunannya, tpi barang kna jual tingkat bawah sja... and 50-70 percent discount. atu yg siuknya tu. hehe :D

and we called the day early, patang balik udah hotel. early rehat. had a good sound nap tadi. charging energy utk next days lah. will be going back to milan esuk. then lusa, maybe.. maybe, insyaAllah.. will be moving to geneva, swiss. report ke consulate brunei sana. and then, lets just see whats gonna happen to us. maybe balik brunei, maybe stay sana. all in all, im fine here. and the order is clear. we can picture what to do next. so pleaseeee dont worry.

didnt imagine that one day i'll be back to geneva. haha. msatu jet de eau nya tutup, yatah msanya kn mlawat smula ni. :p plus that tempat makan yg nyaaamaaan bagi tbayang2 ah. hehe. nganya nganya kan... haring udah aku ani. haring udah baju2 ku ani. haha. di manakn laundry ani, mahal lagi tu kali... huhu. but.. its just a small thing bah. hehe.

and wherever im going to lapas ani, either stay in geneva or back brunei, sehelai spinggang th ni. baju winter. sama barang utk sminggu. and barang2 nda pedah. haha. hw can i live without winnie the pooh? :P i hope i hope, i pray rumah kami di cairo okay2 sja.. rumah selamat, barang inside selamat. important documents tu babe, and important files inside my other laptop and hdd. huhu. mudahan th selamat. amin. and mudahan egypt will be back to normal soon. amin

this is my final day in Treviso, final day with updates on blog :p final day with this good internet connection. hehe

bah safe and fun journey! :)


ya ALLAH, jadikanlah egypt sebuah negara yang aman. berikanlah keamanan, kemakmuran dan keselamatan ke atas egypt dan seluruh penduduknya. amin amin.

Italy.Day six.Jan 31

yesterday's post :p

pretty. isn't it? :) subhanallah

ampar th ku jua kelmarin.. no blog, no internet. ngalih. kurang memanfaatkn th ku nah. haha

anyways. taadaa. went to the alps (again:p second after last yr in swiss :p). this time to the dolomites in Cortina. equally impossibly-beautiful-place. though.. i think i like Leukerbad (Gemmi-pass, swiss) better.

we walked all the way from the bus station there to one of the mountains, kan main sledging. and ski-lift. haha. it was... fun. wlwpun first times are always more fun. apakan. haha. i like tobogganing in swiss better. yesterday was tiring. climbed bukit sdikit. at least covered 6km jalan kaki; KM ulang alik. ani lagi nda fit, nda th ku tau ni. :P

we lepak twice at the other train station, minum2 tihi. and while we were there masa the first tihi, there was this guy.. ia handal main judi. haha. the machine one.. apa namanya tu yg main tamukan gambar2 ah.. iatah ia very handal.. gugur sja duit pacah ulihnya, to the tahap people in there menoleh arahnya and mnagur ia.. like, "handal jua kau" haha. i dont call that lucky, i call that skill. he managed to gain 600 euro!! handal jua tu.

in Treviso (where i am at now) and areas nearby, especially cortina (nda plg nearby eh. ada jua 200km jaraknya. haha), people here dont really speak english. its kind of hard, tpi nda jua hard. haha. kami cakap ayam itik sja. and good enough, amazing enough.. somehow we understand each other.. hehe. and handal udah ni mengAssume cakap italy. mliat news pun ada translation sendiri2. :p mun batah lagi di sini, mau nda mau paham th kami tu bahasa drg ah. haha

hmm.. so, moving on to the next post. fr today :p