remember me..

tomorrow.. im going home. one of the home-s. :p fr i define home is anywhere and everywhere. its.. the feeling that matters.

summer... has been great. i.. will miss this summer so much. it.. successfully has found some places to stay, somewhere in the spaces of my memory, and of my heart. i know.. i sound.. kind of sentimental. do i not? but.. this is something that i will have to remember, that i will remember fr the rest of my life.. :) ...fr so many reasons. though.. sometimes i think.. there werent much in the summer, but.. ive felt so much about it. from my downs, to my ups.. just.. the many things.. maybe, just.. the differences. maybe.. just the new things.. maybe.. just the changes.. maybe.. just the little things that ive been thru.. maybe.. just the little things that ive realised.. the little things that ive seen along the way...

its.. like.. thanks.. thanks fr the memories.. alhamdulillah, i am grateful :)

oh ya, on that sun, nada stay drumah.. haha. we went to check in fr one night at holiday inn hotel. haha. buang tabiat, i know! but.. we have been longing fr something relaxing.. i guess, as little and as buang tabiat as tinggal rh hotel. because... there is no much time left.. kn bjalan jauh2, too lazy, too tired to plan and yes, so many things to do yet so little time. mnada rajinn maanaa ni diri ani..

and... im kind of sad. i wanna go back home, yes. i have to. i want to. but im sad... biasa plg, most of us barat ati tia udh kn balik atu.. but this time, its extra extra barat dikit.. malas lgi packing. wonder how its going to be next year.. my last yr di cairo, insyaAllah... lagi sedih.. but then, fr good. right? :)


aah and lucky that my presentation is postponed to monday! nda juaku brabut2 arini. tpi.. lucky kh ah? haha. mcm mau juaku lakas2 abis atu. i dont know. but.. maybe this is a good thing. :)


see u again cairo in sept. i hope i'l make it to the music festival this sept.. :) ..i hope, i pray.. everything else will be good. will be better. next semester will be great. amin.

safe flight me~ and all! :)




"its been hard to ignore.. and its getting harder to ignore... and in time, it will hurt me more.. but.. they say.. some of the best things in life are mistakes anyway......"

last friday~~

it sounds like im gonna stay at home today. but.. im not sure. i should start on my presentation today, start packing and memanyap rumah. aaaah malas!!

on fri, went to watch the dolphin and spent some times at the playground. main sikit2 :D mcm.. that was the only escape and "fun" i had fr the whole summer i spent here!! (whaat~) ..today, i wanted to join the trip to port said, but i doubt that i'l still be good if i join, with all the presentation, shopping, memanyap stuff.. and flight is so getting nearer.. i guess, its the worry that has taken over me. takut nda siap, takut mngalih, tkut panas especially!!.. bla bla bla.. thinking again, mcm rugi jua!! aaah apasajalah. huhu

oh and that fri, went to this Dandy Mall.. i think i like the place! and.. i actually have this habit, ordering two same minuman at a time.. klw ku karing lihir bh... and urg restoran usually heran, bekarut.. unsure if they heard right.. and said "two?u want it after u have finished ur first drink?" -- me "no, now" lpas tu drg bekarut lagi. aku pun malu th jua ulih drg kdg2. hish. bagi sja bh, jgn byk tnya. so, yth di dandy mall ani, went to this restaurant, chili's.. skali aku order minuman atukn, dua buting yg sma.. and udh mbayar, arh resit atu sbuting sja kna buat minumanku atu.. and being a good and honest girl i am (haha:p) ..i called the waiter and said "i ordered two drinks, and this is only one" and he replied "oh. we have this promotion. if u order two drinks-of the same category, the second one will be free" yahuu!! waaah, ada jua bisainya ku ada habit mbali minuman sama atu :p and well, u should have advertised ur promotion atu darling!! haha

nah tinggal tia post ku ani rh draft.. -so.. to be continued lah-

:D

unwell

i know i am a little crazy sometimes...

i just didnt know that i am this crazy...

sigh



and and..

maybe heartless too..

:(

what.. what should i do...

just.. some.. highlights..

wow. its becoming a "careless" summer.. when i dont even want to get tired anymore, like before.. i dont even think about krugian spending my time like this.. pmalas udh.. huhu..

but.. last week was quite busy i think.. weds,thurs,fri,sat.. ive got classes.. and homeworks, and practices and presentation.. it was tiring.. but so much less tiring than before.. maybe its the fact that i barely go to gym anymore..

oh anyway, i didnt go to gym fr a week last time before i went back.. and when i went that one day, that surprisingly made me happy.. like i said before, somehow i find satisfaction in running.. or things like that.. (dont frget the fact that i hate running)

and now, i havent been to gym fr a week jua udh.. fr 8 days to be exact.. heh rugi. haha

what else? i automatically woke up early these days.. its a good thing i guess.. :) a good start to change my routine.. but.. maybe.. if i do change.. i'd feel like losing some parts of me then.. hahaha.. :p nda apa bh, fr good. if it makes me happy....

but today, when i woke up.. at first i felt okay, and happy.. but.. then.. i was somehow sad.. i know why.. but.. skip! :p

hah, now i have this ques in my head "how am i going to spend today" haha, that just shows im free and boredom could strike me any time.. hmm i still asked that to myself when initially i already planned to panyap rumah so that i'l have undisturbed free days later.. jalan2 and shopping stuff.. hooo

and yesterday, i went to watch Inception alone. coolness. haha. the movie was brilliant. i like the idea. fresh, berakal, deep, symbolic, metaphorical, and aku slalu amazed ni with the brain thing, dreams, idea, etc. :)

one more good thing is that im not going to have homeworks on forms, data-s, companies lagi fr now.. ive graduated from HR course!! yahuu :D that was beneficial, and ookay, a good way to stimulate the brain with ideas jua.. and more introductions to work field lh.. but ngalihku mbuat homework bh, makin boring lagi tu.. haha.. i learned a lot though :)

&& my violin teacher has taught me a song!! i am happy fr that. its gonna be my first song :)