one D!!

alhamdulillah. yayyy. that means i secured one distinction right? happy. i said i needed 13 or 14 more marks, then i got 15.5 (i had a target of 15 masa dulu2 bfore i did the presentation, oh before i even knew what we were going to present). received an email from the lecturer, with comments on the presentation. she said.. i did good but to improve on that, i have to go into further analysis and details.. nuhh, i dont have the skill yet - to go into details within the given 3 minutes.. aii nda benafas ku bcakap tu:p i dont know about others.. malasku kn mnyibuk.. hehe.. tpi i thought my speech was the shortest of all, maybe exactly 3 mins or maybe a bit more.. i think its only fair to potong markah org yg labih masa dari 3mins.. banar eh.. pbaik aku yg labih, potong tia.. bnr jua tu, dorang mngarasi sukati2 mngambil more than 3 mins, which also means drg can stuff up more points and deeper analysis into their speech.. and possibly more marks.. nah see.. buyuk.. hmm. biar tia lah, many words inda jua ertinya isi bagus.. and yeah, baik jua markahku okay lah.. mun inda marah th ku.. haha.. i think, my courses or andangnya generally courses kah, "its better to go deep into a focused point/issue than giving so many other things but inda detail" - misalnya possible solutions to improve sekian2.. give maybe two suggestions and go into details rather than give 5 lines (no details)

now im waiting fr chris's email. sudah dua minggu lah cikgu. hehehe. tpi impress ku lecturers ani eh, merait paper sekajap sungguh. atukan mbuat assignment batah, dui dorang merait tutup mata sja, siap tia:p

aah. one more thing. kmi punya uni regulation kn, nda bleh ambil courses yg clash. then ada th ku tepakai satu law course ani, clash ya sama one politic subject. masalahnya aku udah enrol all my pols subjects and left the law slot empty fr about 2weeks. eh no, i enrolled in another chris's subject. tpi ahir abis ah, week 12, bulan oct. and ada presentation ah. hahaha. malasku wh lagi. nda jua ada pngalaman yg mbagi jara ah, tpi malasku go thru the thinking process mikirkan "aah presentation lgi" tpi udh present nada papa pn bnrnya. huhu. and as a bonus point sbnrnya subject mr mata lawa ani aku familiar udh. psal ia part of essayku aritu. bh anyway. then when i can decide udah what i really wanted.. aku kn drop chris's and enrol in this course yg aku inda familiar and mcm pyah but... didnt i go here not knowing anything msatu? sama lah jua ni. only this time its scarier psal i know how not knowing feels like. haha. antam sja lh cause i think its gonna be more practical lah benda ani utk negara kita:p aah skali, when aku kn enrol this course inda lagi dapat psal ia clash dgn my pols subject. and all the other pols sudah panuh!! weh. how. one hr sja clashnya but fr fr times. then pksa ku kontek sana sini, mnatau ada possibility kna allow such clashes kan.. then yes, after contact2 itu ini. and lecturernya pn okay, then dapat.... but now, im afraid if i made a wrong decision. haih. i'll never know, until i go through it. mcm this sem jua tu, now i think i made a right decision :) but masa semester satu i didnt have doubt at all!! konpidenku enrol subject2 ku atu! oh and now im affected ulih cakap coursemate ku ani jua, ia gitau subject2 yg ia enrol msa sem satu.. dan dikuatkan lah lagi dgn hujah beliau "u better consider the lecturers. its important to have a nice and lenient one u know.." terkesan lah pulak dijiwa i. padahal msa semester satu aku tabak sj. didnt have any idea psal lecturers sgala atu man. then udahku experience, i thought there is some truth in the dalil lah:p and aku pn takut jua tia. haha. but msa smester satu ani, seorg sja lecturerku yg mcm strict brabis. yg lain, okay... baik.. especially mr mata lawa kali:p alhamdulillah. so yeah, i'll just take the risk. pndai2 ko kn enrol arh subject clash, pndai2 ko berusah sndiri. mun mngalih psal classnya batah, u have no right to complain:p

mudahan th okay.. Rabbi yassir wala tu'assir ya karim.. Rabbi tammim bilkheir.. amin.. ya Allah, jadikan aku hamba yg bersyukur & redha.. permudahkan lah urusanku, serta berikanlah rahmat&keberkatan&redhaMu.. kuatkan smangat&kudratku.. luruskan niatku ya Allah.. amin amin :)

happy birthday housemateku!

today is my housemate SALWANA's birthday!! happy birthday sal. couldnt do anything special... sobsob. ia lagi exam esuk. hmm. okay, we'll go to your cafe nxt week ah;p or go around city, or anywhere u want :D

glad to have her around. if aku nada housemate, or with strangers.. i think stress ku will double triple.. and i wont be any happier than i am now. she's a good cook too. im addicted to sawi now, either psal cara ia masak (which i could copy sudah:p) or its just i never really tried to appreciate sawi;p like her curry too.. nasi ayam, cucur pisang.. and yeah, she's good. and i am good too. hahah =p i just wish i have the baking utensils now, so i can make her a good cake. and i can make my favvy cakes sementara aku free ani. hehehe. klw mbali, haiih.. its just no way.. im gonna regret that i think. cua th ku liat sja the price arh kadai nxt week kali ah? tpi klw ku bali, sasak th ku tu.. kn ku apa jua utensils yg sama banyak2? kn dijual nganya tu~

anyways, good to have her around, dia seorg yg tinggi toleransi dan sabar. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

tadi aku liat crita human-animal bond. yatah yg ku kalah tu benda catu ah. human's feelings towards animals inda mbagi heran. klw feelings animal arh tuannya atau rh urg yg baik arh ia.. im melted, touched. haha. its just amazing how those animals could remember a person's face, name, deeds, aah.. animal th pulang yg basssaaar hatinya.. sobsob. i want an animal buddy too!

i always tease my housemate psal ia suka animals and zoo-s, but it turned out.. i have a thing and deep feelings bout them too. haha

sekian.

prarpropkapkap

poc days were good. i did exercise, those crazy exercises yg mbaginya ingkang2 kn trabah nganya inda... and i did monitor my diet well. i'd eat protein, i'd avoid cholestrol if i could.. haha. and i makan a lot. heavy bfast, after exc (klw ada mkanan available.kdgnya behata), at 10 (klw opis bagi nasi, then its nasi), lunch, hi tea, dinner and supper tpi supper jarang. and yet i didnt gain a lot of weight. only GRAMS. altho my body's compo changed into plus 2 kilos muscle but minus 2kilos fat.. hahah. i dont need another loss man. i need a gain. but its so hard to gain when we did such a lot of running. inda running pun ku payah gain nih.

but ive abandoned those glorious days, sadly. 

there is this netball, organised by student body di sini. first time was in march, msatu aku stress brabis. so without even a micro hesitation, i joined. i wanna transfer my pressure arh the ball:p thats the plan. skali ujan. inda jadi. and then sunyii. aku pun inda jog lagi jua. then recently drg abis class kali, off week. revision. and ada tia lagi msa ari saturday. but i was selesema. and since rmai urg kn main, i hesitated a lot. mainly psal aku gagar lh, hahah. i dont know if i can even catch a ball anymore? havent played netball for a year plus. and i have zero stamina. ZERO. adding to that, i was sick. krg memalukan diri sendiri sja;p so.. no. tapi kana cancel psal ujan lgi. that was yesterday, kana postpone today. when a friend sms me... i said yes. because my health got better yesterday. and nya urg klw damam bisai dbwa bpaluh. plus i think i'll get bored if i stay dlm rumah memanjang. i better at least liat drg main. and i was thinking, staun labih udh ku nda main netball.. but if i could played with and caught those 2kgs balls during poc, why would an ordinary air-light ball turned me hesitant? esseh. kambang-kambangan:p aah pisan tu the 2 kgs ball.. mula2 bnr eh, exc mcm biasa, angkat angkat, turunkan.. cmatu cmani.. but as the days went on, lambung to your partner, bawa belusir etc.. dont u underestimate 2kgs atu... kapus2 jua eh. and one day, we were asked to pass2 the ball mcm netball but without the "goal net", lambung to ur group members and count brapa kali u can pass to each other beturut2, if inda beturut2 (klw kana catch ulih the other group) then count ur passes back to zero. when u reach ten passes in a row, then its a ONE score. haduii, tebako rasa dada i. hahah. ngaleh2 blusir bh. and the ball, dangerous jua tu bnrnya. hehehe. but handle with care sja lah. pcaya jua the coach we wont hurt oursleves ah? hmm maybe he knows better, abis2 pun binjul kali sj? hehe. 

skali netball atu, today cancel lagi, psal ujan sikit and inda cukup urg kali. psal ujan kn, so inda rmai yg respon to that this early hour. and me, when i woke up.. i saw ujan.. then my mind ter-set"nda jadi", plus.. i cannot risk my health with the weather.. hehehe. i dont wanna go back to my 1st-2nd day of selesma. aah scary:p ada ubat merah dbrunei tu.. last time aku kna bagi ulih my sis in law, ubat from private clinic.. aku suka that ubat.. ia prevent the cold.. if have the symptoms, then swallow the pill, sleep, the next day nyah hilang the symptoms, insyaAllah klw diizinkanNya.. hehe

bh what am i gonna do for the rest of the day? kan jalan, indaku bdgn:p and im not in the mood to jln2, esp in this weather. main netball was a yes just because it'd give me paluh in a fun way. hmm buat assignment, balumku bemood :( will try to start tmorrow lh. i wanna finish it, at least the 'rough-unedited' version lah by 15th.. tapi tapi... antah ah, i doubt it.. psal prangai last minute (aah inda bgarak bh aku ani klw nada that "danger alert" kicking in) and... now aku rsa kn berehaaaat sja. no good no good. but if i want to get a distinction, i better start tmorow, that'll at least give me better chance and close the doors for possible regrets.. haha. bh i go back to sleep sja now? 

codral

fuuh alhamdulillah. i feel better now. kmarin atu, jn cakaap lah. i felt weak. and kdg2 sajuk brabis. and idung inconsistently teblock atau runny nose. woke up like every one hr and early in the morning. paning sungguh but i decided to grab any cold relief in the nearest 7Eleven. when i swallowed one, it didnt make any difference. kn ampai2 sj rh katil, payah bnafas klw lying down atu. klw inda lying down lalah. so i watched tv actually plus ampai2 rh katil jua. half an hour mcm sejam rsanya. the hardest time is when i was about to sleep. ya Allah, sakit nya kah. heavy head, panas, sajuk, paning. inda lgi mau tdur tu. fr some hours i just gulik2 atas katil, couldnt even breathe well. bnafas dari idung, teblock. bnafas dari mulut, karing rsanya plus sakit leher. skali magic, tetidur th ku jua. ofcourse tbngun2 mcm every 2-3hrs, tpi i felt better la. aih lama udhku inda selesma ani, thats why ia mcm inda nyaman brabis ani kali? alhamdulillah jua, kafarah dosa.. insyaAllah...

mudahan th lakas baik. amin amin :)

achhoo

this is not good. i am unwell. atu tarus2. all it takes is sneezing every 2mins. and it gives that mcm lump inda jua lump rasanya arh lihir. and ingus putih cair yg mngalir sndirinya :p

my head feels so heavy now. and leher sakit. tarus2 sungguh eh. i need to swallow panadol and i need a good sleep. feww~ awal ku tidur tonite.

nutty chocolate

eiii that nutty chocolate drink is so eiyye. tpi more than half jua ku minum. syg jua duit tu mn tarus ku buang kali? :p its a mix of frozen yoghurt, hazelnut, milk, chocolate kali.. but didnt expect yoghurtnya atu pekat brabis. i said "mcm susu bangas ada jua rsanya ani" and i wasnt kidding. when housemate tasted it, she agreed 120% :p

something crossed my mind earlier today.. remember how difficult i thought it was fr me, being the only girl wearing hijab in class, while my courses are the sensitive ones? then i got used to it bit by bit.. the only thing i dont like is the fact that being the only one wearing tudong means im so noticeable. wlw th urg inda ingat mukaku kiranya, they know my existence.. they remember me.. they can easily remember what i said and did.. and possibly im the only one yg btudong ambil this program this yr, that means.. whatever subject i take, they know the tudong girl is me. but to my advantage, the lecturers remember me easily, in a blink of an eye:p bnr eh. hehe. hmm i can tolerate sensitive topics, i swallowed and blocked them well. and i am quite used to being different. (tpi klw new class nd plg siuk tu, masih jua krasahan 'being different' atu). but.. that talk show day, one of the groups picked the women rights treaty topic one. this treaty has conflicts with many muslim countries and shariah.. (ah kana google, smpai ni ke mari eh..), then one of them acted as a muslim woman, portraying an expert of shariah law. nothing was really wrong in her speech. its just she opined that islam should not be interpreted in the traditional way.. which partly could be true jua kn, depending on methodology and that 5 principles of shariah (one of them: hukum berubah mngikut peredaran zaman) BUT then, caranya pun mesti lurus, inda bleh contradict sama hukum islam yg ada dalil jelas. pokoknya jgn kn tesecular2, temodern2 sukati.. caranya mesti jua lurus. she didnt mention any sensitive or wrong thing, i think, she did not elaborate more. but its just... somehow it hurt me..  antah ah.. antah..

mana th jua ia expect kali ada urg di class atu yg ada background shariah.. atau they wont even care if they know.. and that session wasnt opened to Q&A.. lagipun she didnt say anything wrong, although maybe lack of deep understanding... inda plgku tau if bnrnya ia atu muslim ah.. if she is, then she should have elaborated more in what ways islam should not be interpreted in traditional way.. what the limitations are..

aah.

1.5

alhamdulillah that was my final class for the first semester. yay!! i made it. well consider made it, although i have one more assignment. legal memorandum. but thats alright. i have time, i think. hehe. and im positive about it.

so.. todays presentation or more of a "tv show" or talk.. it was okay. didnt have time to be nervous, mainly because i was sooo wanting for this to be over. magic laah aku inda nervous atu. ihihih. and my group, the one i talked about dulu.. turned to be okay :)

and i got a pretty good mark for the test. only lost 5.25 marks. but i dont know about others? didnt ask..  im happy fr the mark, although i targeted a loss of 5. but thats close enough. alhamdulillah. and i need 13, or maybe 14 more marks to have a distinction. hopefully!! amin amin mudahan th dpat distinction.

tadaa daa my 1.5 months holiday (plus one 5000) starts NOW! iyeha yeha. happy pyyy pyyy