lubang cacing

untuk switzerland, kmi telah mngorek lobang cacing. kerana telah tersilap korek lobang lain sbelum itu. (mamnu' mnaruh kerana after fullstop)

dan.. smoga sgala urusan dn pjalanan nnti bjalan dgn lancar, tnpa musibah dn bncana. smoga bmanfaat dan sangaaat seronok. amin.

smoga juga exam esuk snang dn kmi smua mnjawab dgn lancar dn lurus. najah dn berkat. amin.

sigh, im so counting the hours to the end of the final paper. i hate this. i like what i felt during exam last semester. fuuh. i remember counting the days/hours too last yr, first sem. oh oh alahai. final paper.. mudahan th okay, i mean.. fr all this time here, final paper has always offered 'something' extra.. haha.. hmm, first yr first sem: tafsir. pnjang and well, quite pyah. psalnya limited day given for revision. jarak sehari nganya. 1st yr 2nd sem: feqh syafi'e: pyah abis. kna rafak nganya nih ulih; alhamdulillah :) then 2nd yr 1st sem: apa ah? emm... tafsir!! yes yes.. that was the most difficult one bagiku. hit me the hardest. but.. alhamdulillah, miracle.. i got more than i deserve. like, brabis brabis more than i deserve. syukur, alhamdulillah ya Rabb. 2nd yr 2nd sem: hadis (obama case. which was supposed to be qaah bahas feqh muqaran), skali this hadis pn pyah. i had to tinggalkn many2 tajuk. alhmdulillah plg, yg kuar tu yg ku afal. but its so byk and pyah that hafalanku btaburan. klw tia skiranya qaah bahas, snang plg sikit.

point is, last paper slalunya pyah.. or pnjang.. or combination of both. tomorrow, miras: emm.. nda byk bnr kn diafal.. but.. miras bh.. confusing and all..

or was it because.. its the last paper? energy was already low. been consumed by previous subjects. hehe.

mudahan th tjwab esuk. mudah. lancar, lurus, nda cuai. amin. mudahan tni smua najah. amin

booney damoney

damon!! knapa lh kau beulah atu.. haha. its not usual to find a lovable villain.. i mean villain wh lovable? :p its not easy to combine such contrast in one character. damon is such a demon, jahat wh ia atu bnrnya, and yet i forgive him (i assume most people pn forgive ia).. like when he faces some dangers, i dont want him dead, dont even want him to get hurt. ia jahat, tpi skalinya ada urg kn bunuh ia or jahati ia.. i feel like jgnnnnn~~~ nda~~~ haha. (maybe except msa stefan kn bnuh ia psal lexi. haha. atu ok ku sikit)

jahat bh ia atu.. bunuh2 urg, yg innocent lgi tu.. esp part lexi lh.. but as i said, he is lovable. he is fun. humorous. gauk. has a good sense of sarcasm. he has this kjahatan but deep deep inside, people sense the good part of him. kononnya i believe he jahat for some reasons or dendam (still plg, its not right to be jahat anyway no matter how big big the reasons are).. he seems to care for those who matter to him.., in his own way. (si elena sma stefan th nganya kali so far. plus nini muyang si elena). yg pntingnya ia atu mcm siuk. haha

and aku ksiukan ep 11!! dunno if thats because i missed vd lah ah. byk isi crita. i like the part where elena said "hey i save your life" -- "i know" -- "and dont u frget that". i like the part where he listens to elena's conv -- "dont u pretend to care, i know ure gloating inside"-- like the part where he killed bree (SOMEHOW!!) --- like these dialogues "u know who i am and yet u offered me ur hand.." -- "i couldnt leave without knowing you" emm apa lgi? the part where stefan reveals the first time he met elena.. byk lh. (atau aku bkas stress exam, yth enjoy every bits of the story. hahah. ksian ksian)

i think, im gonna love this series much much. masuk list top 3 ni, maybe 2.. :D

exam~ exam~ exam~

tidur th kh? 6.59am, cairo

jiranku uu

welcome to 3904. :p

tingkat smbilan: living in the nearest door to us, is an old couple. i think drg 2 sj sana. but at times, anak anak dn kerabat mrk dtg.. emm.. at first i didnt like them. now.. ok lah.. slalu senyum and friendly id say? oh i even dingdongED their house once psal aku sasak arh urg zibalah, nasib nada urg. haha apalah :p

next door lgi sbuting, the one i talked about. twice. jiran yg kadangnya ku skodeng. esp summer, psalnya nd ku sngaja tetoleh ke tabuknya. hahaha. err.. mcm rmai yg tnggal sana. yg muda2, lelaki.. i think 3? smua diff characters. the eldest one (i assume lh), is.. sort of cold (arent cold people interesting tho? haha. emm depends lh).. he's not friendly, quiet maybe, or shy.. cold lh kali.

the middle one, friendly, emm how to say this? loves attention? haha sukati. jnis bgaya? boyish? dunno dunno. eye contact, sort of gentleboy or trying to be.. apa lgi? aah caring i think, from what i saw.. ia towards adinya

the youngest one.. looks like the most mature one somehow. caring, very. responsible. respectful. ive seen him with his sister yg damit.. mcm slalu adinya atu arh ia? once ia ambil adinya balik skulah.. then ada lgi lh ku liat. quiet but not cold.. gentleboy in a good way. nda boyish and looks like a good boy.

note: they all look younger than us.

hahaha sukatiku. bia tia bh.. lets play with my blink. i do trust in my blink :p (skalinya.. drg ani urg yg sma bnrnya.. haha :P)

next, jiran yg pling jauh, the same tingkat. just renovated their house. not sure how many people in there. i mean nt even sure byk kh nda. but of course i noticed this old paji. looks mysterious and mcm spisis yg bgi tkut kn dtagur.. that one time, i was sweeping the floor outside our apartment.. it was subuh.. like 5plus am. (note that rumah kmi ampir lift). then siuk2 mnyapu, suddenly i heard bunyi lift ah. i was like, cana ni.. should i go inside? but but it'd be too late. abis pnyapu tnggal, pntu nd btutup ni krg. so i played cool. tunduk. please please pretend that i do not exist. it was the paci. baliknya solat di masjid pakah. err. please, i do not exist. i do not... BUT: "kna kuyakkn smpah kmu"
me: "HAH?" esen kajut. tkajut plgku. haha
paci: "kna kakai smpah kmu. kuyak",
me: "awu"- bh jalan th. knapa tia bckap ani? and yes, he walked away.. dot dot.. and! nah he stopped, reverse ya "nah gula-gula ah. ambil tia" baginya tiaku tiga kh empat biji gula2. huhu. mngapa th.. nd juaku btudung tu. sluar lgi nd ckup banang. haa haa. ehhh tpi ia andang plg slalu bgi gula2 jua. hehe

rumah dpan kmi.. mcm kosong since batah batah udh. boh...

tingkat tujuh: a young man, looks older than us. or same age lh. is studying or was arh uni di ma'adi (biasa~ knalan. haha). friendly, a bit shy, looks like a good boy.. and has a girlfriend..

bawab: he was a good man, i thought. helpful. but atu was.. msani ntah ah.. dont really like him anymore. mcm lain dh.. something about you~ haha

siapa lgi should i include? nnti th, ada continuation lgi.. psal kdai runcit dbwah rumah lgi.. haha

oo oww oww

aii aii karan kmi tutup.. tapi kn.. punya lah magis aku mmpu beinternet wireless awal ani :p i think.. weak kali karannya? tdi tutup kholiss, skali after a few mins ada something2.. skali yg working sja arahku msani laptop (pkai karan) and internet.. speaker ku nda ia tebawai, tho the extension indicated bahawa karan sdang bpasang..

emm outside imarah and dbwah blmpung.. dluar shaah gelap.. dan jiranku buka tabuk lapisan luar (haha jiran eh, ia hensem bh. i mean drg, psal byk drg adi bradi, ndaku tau mna stu. haha. dont take that seriously :p)

bh bilath kn buka ni? kn behapa th ku ni.. aku belum mau tidor woo.. kn baca buku ni :p (udahnya nda blmpung tu) tidak saya ada emergency lite ah.. klw ada pn, ku pkai time desperate kali sj.. adih.. heh heh

hmmm 5.22am cairo.

pre-pra

aku tidak mau menyakitimu dgn kau mengetahui bahawa aku mnyukaimu..
kerna aku belum mampu ke jenjang itu..

by a guy, stolen somewhere from fb. nice one man.. haha. (the message it has.. both in the islamic and feelings way) :)

anyways.
it might hurt.. letting someone know that u like them and not doing anything to it?
it might hurt.. letting someone know that u like them and doing something to it? (emm?)
it might hurt.. not letting someone know that u like them?

hurt them, hurt them, hurt u hurt them.

(just.. feelings version)

malas eh..

apa sajalah

dan saya di sini lagi :D

ssungguhnya, target ku terbabas amat. aku sedang tersasar jauh dari trget kjauhan mnghafal. tapi, yes, take my quote: "mn target nda tesasar, nda tia adventurous" no good no good. sasat.

aku bukan tidak ada rasa kabak.. rasa.. rasa.. cuma, kalau aku kn sirius, sudah saya cakap.. masa previous post.. and thats no fun..

dan kadang kadang lagi, saya dilanda iskiness for the coming holiday. no good, no good.

emm my bed is extra comfy pun jua masani. kerana kerana aku telah-TELAH ('ubira bilmadhi. HAH HAH) membeli comforter yg kurang bjenama baru2 ini.. wrna purple, (utliqa ma'a extra info, mubalghatan. nda pun?)

jgn pernah lelah berdoa.. jgn pernah berhenti berusaha~

random:
one. kalau ku makan nasi, aku nda suka kuah lauk/sayur i.e: makanan selain nasi itu interfere dgn nasi. ia mesti nd di atas nasi.
two. i always order soto di kdai dgn mngatakn "bagi talur sparuh masak ah". perrghh
tiga. i like strawberry. this, u must know.
empat. this phrase "kalau awak ingin berkahwin dgn saya, awak kena terima saya seadanya" my phrase "kalau awak ingin berkahwin dgn saya, awak kena terima winnie the pooh saya seadanya" eksenku, winnie the pooh already included in the part "terima saya seadanya". hahaha
lima. this came to my mind just now : "kadang, apa yg tiada apa apa bagimu adalah segala-galanya bagi org lain"- taken from my sis. (her quote or others, saya tidak tau. tpi saya suka)
enam. i'd be surprised at how transparent i am actually. or transparent i could be. (consciously i think i am not transparent lah. tpi manaku tau)
seven. u'd be surprised on how much i care for you (insert your own verb; miss you, love you, etc2. things like that).. much much more than i would like to admit. ---- in bracket u'd be surprised on how much u dont know me. oppo of the above line.
eight. i dont quite like melayu saying "aigoo" hahaha. psalnya somehow kmbang buluku. tpi ku seluru jua kdg2, so no harm done.
nine. leave it blank lah, nada something in mind msani. haha
ten. i said i like u, and u just said 'ok?' hahaha.
eleven. u say sweet things to girls because u like them? or its just out of habit?
twelve. kalau ku ada super power, aku mau power si matt heroes kali. i said KALI tuu. (jan bcakap sma aku be TOH TOH TOH, as in ckap btaip and asfal min zalik yakni yakni ...... )
after 12. ndaku mau mngisar lada malar2. sikit lagi damam tadi tu. haha. over kh? kh? sakit bh

eh sangal blakangku.

kau rasa, kau fikir, (notice the difference :p)- kau rasa, kau fikir apa mood ku ni nah?

but yuhuhu

funny, how close i feel to this blog sometimes :P it could be my punchbag, i feel like i could talk just about everything, i could channel my unwanted energy here, i could throw silly thoughts, i could say things that others dont understand.. just.. funny. (not that everything, not too personal matters i mean).

not only because i know at least one person will read it.. but.. because.. there might be someone else who feels the same at the time.. who thinks just about the same thing.. strangers who might understand better.. who might care about what i say, what i try to deliver.. who and who, might and might bla bla bla.. i mean, its just.. JUST! ha ha ha (anubh, kdg2 nada jua urg baca, esp in cases i restricted my blog to myself.. but yuhuhu)

sometimes, i base my actions on my past.. and, good enough, it motivates me somehow sometimes. like, "ive been thru that worst thing before, then why fear? what stops me from doing this. i can" and bad enough, i always base my actions not on what was the best (way/things ive done) but on what i could survive with.. at.. i.e: my actions are based on survival NOT on the best possible result and outcome i could get. like, "aritu aku behata duit ke bandar spuluh ringgit nganya sminggu. this time, i can do the same" like, "the last time i did task like this, i did it only one night.. and now, what makes me need more?satu jam pun boleh" most of the time lah.. barangkali.. i guess its just who i am. (err am i sure? hahaha) ; ehhh jn jua, sometimes i do strive for the best.. :P :P :P and that usually happens for reasons.. emm? or maybe, i need to change :)

aah not to forget, i do base my actions on other people jua.. on what they do, what they think, their way.. etc2.. this, lies on the fine line between "i'd be at my best, i'd be at my worst" or maybe, i need to change :)

choices have always amazed me. the way humans are given with the ability and opportunity to choose. the way choices are made.. the why-s, the who they are that determines their choice.. and how.. such choices shape themselves.. make difference to their life.

if i always take things seriously, i might die early... it doesnt suit me right, or so i think :)